I am No More Eligible

That’s right, I’m off the market. As of September 19th, 2009, I am engaged to the lovely Miss Chelsea. No juicy details, sorry. I think down the road, we’ll do a couple’s blog, how we get to each others’ throat and annoy each other, but until then, probably nothing much to say. I’ll say this though, I asked the question at the spot we first kissed. Yea, I’m a romantic sap and I remember some of these things. Enough to get me by probably. As much as I forget, the important ones to remember are probably first date, first kiss, date of when I ask her to start going out with me, probably our engagement date, and our wedding date. Oh yea, and her birthday. I can’t foresee anything else being super duper important to remember >_< I’m not trying to say I don’t try, but I tend to forget things very very easily. I think she knows that’s how I am.

My whole ordeal with not being online just stems from not wanting to spoil the surprise. I don’t know if you’ve realized it or not, but I tend to blab on about certain things that I should not have prior to a certain time and etc.

We have not set a date and I will not write too much about any of those mushy gushy stuff here. This is almost like a public journal for all to read, but it’s most definitely about me personally and my thoughts about life and the world. So, I’ll leave it at that and there will be other blogs to read for their own purpose.

Now, back to working hard, earning money, and saving them up for the big banquet. I wonder how many people out of the invitees will show up… *starts pondering*…

Yesterday, the 2-day

Yesterday was 2 years anniversary for Chelsea and me AND 2 months working for the new job I was at. Man, the 2’s keep coming, and it is definitely one of my numbers.

Did not spend the time with Chelsea like I wanted because she’s on vacation with her dad and family. She’s coming back tomorrow and we’ll spend this weekend together. I can’t really write what I have planned since she reads my entries, so it’ll have to wait.

Other than that, everything’s been better. I feel I can talk with my sister like normal again and we just went for a buffet dinner tonight. It was good. She recommended the place.

Tonight’s short. I thank you all for reading. Yesterday, I had the highest read ever, 30. I think it might be some people just clicking the link, so that might not even be anything, who knows.

Blogs are meant for knowledge and for sharing. Information that matters to someone other than the writer. Here’s something I’m going to share:

Honor takes you a long way. In today’s society where trying to get the best results for the lowest cost might be important, but when you develop that mentality, honor is some times lost. Especially if you’re there to cheat people as well. Honor your words. It’s ok to take free things, they’re free for a reason, but for those that’s not, don’t. I’ve been keeping up with some spec design site. People hold competition for designers to do job and “pay” the winner(s). Well, not all competition goes that way and the competition holder decides not to have a winner. I’m thinking they have someone to do the job, but probably stealing the ideas from the designers who take time to do it. That’s not honoring. If you want to take that design, then choose that person as a winner.

I can never work like that, not even if I want to put my thing out. If I do, I’ll build my own website for portfolio and do logos or web designs and put them on my portfolio.

Honor, respect, and most of all, honesty. Take that to heart, live life with such and not only will you contribute to society but society will notice and contribute to you.

Learn to Love Work and Work to Learn Love

Every adult out there knows what working does. It pays the bill to sum it all up. What about love? Everyone knows love, it’s a dedication overboard in a sense. With these two having nothing in common, I’ve decided to make this post of two separate things, only because the title sounds cool ^_^

I’ve been working at my new job for a little over a month and a week. At first, I was doing a lot more getting used to the time, place, and how things work, but as I settled down, I began to understand why some people go through the motion of work. It can be tough at times and it can bring in a lot of thought on one specific thing. I’m a web designer. Though I don’t particularly design web sites for a living, it’s part of the description. I don’t consider myself much of a developer, so it fits me well. But why should I succumb to work as being something I have to do to survive in this world because it’s what brings in money into my life? Ever since I started to work, I’ve always looked for a job that I enjoy. Something I want to do. People keep telling me, it’s not as easy or finding a job that they like or want to do is probably the most difficult thing in looking for a job that’s perfect for them. I say all these excuses are nothing but fat excuses. So you’re 15 and you want to play games all your life and test game as a job. Well, when was the last time you wrote a 15-page paper critiquing a game that you played and the ins and outs and everything there is about the game, from the gameplay to the story to the very art cover that attracts people to that game? I didn’t think you did any of those.

When I used to say, “Find a job that you enjoy and love.” I think I should have been clearer. I should have gone in depth and say “Find a realistic job for now that you will like.” In my entire life of working, there was only one job that I dislike and I picked it because I wasn’t working and I was given that opportunity. It’s not something bad per-say, but it wasn’t something for me. I cannot do direct selling and no matter how much you try to get me, I refuse. The reason is because selling other people’s product means nothing to me than an incentive that I might get out in the end. I make money from selling more items isn’t my idea of work. Then again, it is to many.

I have worked at a pet resort. It was tiring, filthy at times, and was also far away from home. That didn’t stop me from enjoying moment in there with the dogs and cats I got to clean and feed. That was the one enjoyable thing I found when I was tired. I have worked at an ice cream store, and though it was a small shop, I would say some of the friendship and the quality I learned from an ice cream shop carried with me till this day. I did not enjoy every customer who came in, but I did my best and as long as I delivered ice cream to them, that was all that had to be said and done. Those were jobs that I ventured before being able to work on a computer and sit in front of one and start coding, doing something that will eventually lead me to where I am, my career.

If I needed a job, I looked for the one I know I would enjoy. Something will turn out eventually, so why can’t some of the people who complain about their job do the same thing? I think what make the difference is mentality. From a younger age, I didn’t love what I had to do. I was told to clean my room, wash this, wash that, mow the lawn, etc… you get the picture. I didn’t enjoy them, but I did them anyway. Eventually, they became mundane at times, but I would always try to find something exciting to do with it. When I mowed the lawn, I didn’t really mow it in a straight line down the yard like how everyone says should be done. Who made that rule anyway? I started going zig-zag and some times cutting the lawn in half and then into quarters and so on and before I knew it, I have mowed the entire backyard by cutting each patch in halves.

What I’m saying out of all these rant is really simple. The little things that you might have overlooked could have made you love your work so much more. When was the last time you really try loving your work. When that happens, work isn’t just work anymore, it’s play. When work and play go hand-in-hand, that’s when you’ve achieve true love for your work. Until then, keep on pressing. If you really don’t like it, I suggest you stop working and start looking for a new job.

And then there is love. I’ll keep this short… you can never love someone enough. If you say you love your wife or husband or someone with all your heart, you are telling a lie. I’ve told that lie before, and I know it’s true. But to me, as much as my heart will allow at that time, it’s not a lie, but that is still an excuse to say I didn’t lie. I cannot love someone whole heartedly. It is  impossible. If you say you love more than one thing, then you will have to split that love up. In mathematical terms, one is a whole, and if one has to split up, it is not a whole and not one anymore. That is why we as human grow and we learn more and we show more than what we have to offer last year, last month, last week, yesterday, or even an hour ago. I believe we have been given the ultimate gift, evolution. Now before you start talking about physical evolution stuff, I am not talking about that. Don’t go saying I agree with the evolution stuff that science book teaches.

So, evolution. As human beings, we evolve constantly. Adapting to environment is part of evolution. Learning from mistake is part of evolution. Learning to say “Yes Dear!” or “No, you don’t look fat.” is part of evolution. Jokes aside, we evolve and we learn more every day. How then can we say we love with all our heart or whole heartedly? Nay I say. That is why we as human beings have to work harder in loving more. Learn more of what love can give, take, contribute, share, and so on and so forth. Love might be an absolute matter in itself, but as human, we cannot see how far love can take us. So work on it. Maybe next time when you love on someone, don’t say the word love… just show that love is there. Maybe then a little more love has been learned from either the receiver or the giver. Until the, work on learning love a bit more, cause I know I do.

Everyday Life Christian… or so I Thought

I started jogging. To be honest, I wished I could start running, but it’s been a while. I would say a little less than a year of not exercising. This is very much like a walk with Christ. We want to start running, but not everyone has that type of stamina. I know I sure don’t physically, that’s why I started jogging. For me, it’s the same with my walk with Christ. I have to constantly do it, otherwise I won’t be able to run anymore and when I look up and want to start running like when I used to, I stumble and fall and start to huff-and-puff. I know that I can jog and have positive results, both physically and spiritually. When it’s time to run, I will run, and I will take that time, but here’s one thing I learned from not exercising for a long time: don’t stop.

Once I stopped exercising, I gave myself countless change to become physically tired. I am not  strong, lack stamina in doing heavy work and worst of all, not living to my utmost potential in a healthy and happy life. In most people’s view, I’m definitely healthy and happy, but I can’t say that I’m the healthiest I could be and in that sense, I’m not at the best I could be. That’s the way how Christians should walk the faith. I for one is not excluded, but a mere 10% of our time is worth a lot more to God than we could imagine. We cannot do our yo-yo dieting with our physical body, it’s dangerous and bad for us, and in the same sense, it’s not good for our spiritual self.

So, do it a little at a time daily is better than trying to do them all cramped up in one or two days. If it isn’t the best for you physically, it isn’t best for you spiritually. Take that to heart and hopefully you walk in your Faith full-hearted the best that you can ^_^

Linking Back and Forward

I had lunch alone today, like most days. It’s the norm for me, but something was different today. I started thinking about the what if situations, the good, the bad, the happy, the sad, the old, and the what’s going to be. Then I started thinking about the ones who has shown love to me throughout my life – my family and friends. Then I started thinking about who were my best friend in the different seasons of my life, the ones who I have not kept in touch because we’re going our own separate ways. Then I thought about the life’s lesson from each of them and from my family, then I thought about how all of these are due to time. Then I thought about time, what exactly it is… I couldn’t really come up with an answer. Then I ate my lunch… but that was just where the story began.

I was driving home when it dawn on me… time is an essence of what’s around, but what really mattered with all that I’ve thought was not about time. It was what time has provided and no matter what time is, there was growth throughout my life. I was thinking about naming this post “Growth from Linking the Past, Present, and Future” but it didn’t ring right. The title of the post really doesn’t mean a lot to some, but for a web designer I link a lot of web pages together. From the style sheet to the web page that makes it pretty and so on. In all my growth, everything was, is, and will be linked together.

Growth does not necessarily mean positive or good. There are such things as negative growth, but nonetheless, it’s growth. Then I thought about how I should promote my growth, now I should show that I’m growing from this time on. I’ve already started my next chapter of life, the one after college and the one where I work full-time, start thinking about a wife and a family happening down the road. Thinking about a ring, an apartment or house of my own, thinking about pets, about an entire life where I will be doing things for myself and for my family.

Then I thought about my own web site. Recently, I’ve brought it down due to it being quite boring.. I thought it’s there, I paid for that space, why aren’t I using it… then the idea of growth came to me. Why can’t my web site be what others use blogs for. I use blog to share my thought, but I could use my web site to share my growth… the dilemma is I’ve never venture to doing something like this. This is a challenge and I guess it’ll be growth as well. So, sit down and take 30 minutes to think of your growth, think of how much you’ve changed. Is it for the better or worse. Be truthful to yourself. That’s when you will see the truth about your growth, and mayhaps you will make your future growth worth while.

Remember, no road is worth taking if we do not see what is around us. For me, I like to look back. I hear a lot of “wise” talk about how we shouldn’t look back at our lives, how we should learn from them, yet we should forget the pass. I would think this is the bad side of one’s past, but I take it from a different approach. Look at the road you’ve taken, look at the footprints you’ve left, whether it’s in a puddle of mud, on a hard road, on sandy street, or even on someone’s face (that’s likely the really bad things that you’ve done), you took these steps to get to where you are now. Where will your next step be? That is up to you to decide and for you to find out where your step will take you. As for me, I am going to take this step in the right direction. When I get to the place where I will rest to look around, I’ll share the story of my journey. Until then, take care ^_^