Heck to Today, but BAM in My Face O_O

Titles and headers are great things. They pretty much summarize the story as a whole, but to know the whole story, you still have to read.

Today = SUPPLIES (shout it really loud and you’ll get it… or say it loud with a fake Chinese accent) day for me. Why? I don’t know. I can’t say why really, but it is. I don’t know why it has to happen today, because I can guarantee it wasn’t like that anytime since 2 months ago.

This morning while getting ready for work, I decided to try a new approach to my day. I was going to say, “Heck to what other people think. Why should I care if others care about themselves more? I’m going to have the day for me and I’m going to plan it all out during lunch, and I’m going to just have a me day. I’ll work for work, but other things… for me.” Yea, don’t do that, especially if you’re me.

The day started well. Had a team meeting, all was smooth and normal. Started working… and then lunch plan was cancelled. Decided to go to lunch with co-workers because we have to get something done for work.

There goes my plan to plan out my day O_O (First BAM! in the gut. Not too bad, still can go on.)

I get a call and I was told that there might be a position opening that I might be interested or able to do it. WHAT?!?! I have a job. But it’s still a good opportunity. Yea, I know. First, was told the person working there up and left without reason all of a sudden. Then they’re desperate to look for someone? (Desperate, really? Will you pay me $100,000 to work for you? I don’t think they’re THAT desperate). In any case, that brings about thoughts into my head. How can I leave my work place that I just started 2 months ago? If the job is a good job and I do want to go, I personally cannot bring myself to leave a company like that.

What about only for me day? Yea yea, that was thought of too and I can’t say that I was able to do that at all…. BAM! Second one was to my face.

God has a sense of humor, he would constantly remind me that there are people around me and I’m always thinking of others. I can’t have a day thinking about myself and all for me. I have to say though, my sister said it best today… um, I don’t remember what she said. I know I was going to quote her, but dam you my memory. Stop forgetting things. I was also going to quote Chelsea, but I forgot. Dam you memory again.

Well, there wasn’t a third BAM!! I calmed down, settled with the obvious choice… just send in my resume and see what happens. If it’s meant to be, why not? If it’s not, then why bother? I’m happy either way.

*Secretly rubbing hands together evilly and whisper o-so-softly* “Come on $100,000.”

Oh, speaking of money, the Florida powerball lottery sure is a lot of money. What is it? 186 Million dollars? I wonder if I should try my hand in it? I probably won’t, unless I hear the numbers very clearly in my head. Good luck to those who are trying and remember, wisdom will take you a long way. If I won that money, 1/2 of it is going to churches and missionaries. The others, well, they’re probably going to get taxed, heheheh. Whatever’s left would go to bills and debts and the rest is for me to live a relaxed life. If I don’t win it, I’ll still have money going to church and missionaries, going to tax, bills, and debts. The rest of my money I’m earning, they’re still going into my life. So, it really is no difference, only a larger sum.

I can guarantee something I would think of doing and BAM! I get punched in my face (not literally just so everyone is clear).

I love my life. It’s surrounded by great families, friends, and most of all… air. Yes, air. I can breathe and live with it ^_^

Linking Back and Forward

I had lunch alone today, like most days. It’s the norm for me, but something was different today. I started thinking about the what if situations, the good, the bad, the happy, the sad, the old, and the what’s going to be. Then I started thinking about the ones who has shown love to me throughout my life – my family and friends. Then I started thinking about who were my best friend in the different seasons of my life, the ones who I have not kept in touch because we’re going our own separate ways. Then I thought about the life’s lesson from each of them and from my family, then I thought about how all of these are due to time. Then I thought about time, what exactly it is… I couldn’t really come up with an answer. Then I ate my lunch… but that was just where the story began.

I was driving home when it dawn on me… time is an essence of what’s around, but what really mattered with all that I’ve thought was not about time. It was what time has provided and no matter what time is, there was growth throughout my life. I was thinking about naming this post “Growth from Linking the Past, Present, and Future” but it didn’t ring right. The title of the post really doesn’t mean a lot to some, but for a web designer I link a lot of web pages together. From the style sheet to the web page that makes it pretty and so on. In all my growth, everything was, is, and will be linked together.

Growth does not necessarily mean positive or good. There are such things as negative growth, but nonetheless, it’s growth. Then I thought about how I should promote my growth, now I should show that I’m growing from this time on. I’ve already started my next chapter of life, the one after college and the one where I work full-time, start thinking about a wife and a family happening down the road. Thinking about a ring, an apartment or house of my own, thinking about pets, about an entire life where I will be doing things for myself and for my family.

Then I thought about my own web site. Recently, I’ve brought it down due to it being quite boring.. I thought it’s there, I paid for that space, why aren’t I using it… then the idea of growth came to me. Why can’t my web site be what others use blogs for. I use blog to share my thought, but I could use my web site to share my growth… the dilemma is I’ve never venture to doing something like this. This is a challenge and I guess it’ll be growth as well. So, sit down and take 30 minutes to think of your growth, think of how much you’ve changed. Is it for the better or worse. Be truthful to yourself. That’s when you will see the truth about your growth, and mayhaps you will make your future growth worth while.

Remember, no road is worth taking if we do not see what is around us. For me, I like to look back. I hear a lot of “wise” talk about how we shouldn’t look back at our lives, how we should learn from them, yet we should forget the pass. I would think this is the bad side of one’s past, but I take it from a different approach. Look at the road you’ve taken, look at the footprints you’ve left, whether it’s in a puddle of mud, on a hard road, on sandy street, or even on someone’s face (that’s likely the really bad things that you’ve done), you took these steps to get to where you are now. Where will your next step be? That is up to you to decide and for you to find out where your step will take you. As for me, I am going to take this step in the right direction. When I get to the place where I will rest to look around, I’ll share the story of my journey. Until then, take care ^_^

Getting Used to It

It’s been more than two weeks since I had to wake up at 7:30 AM every morning of the weekdays and I can say I’m happily alright with that time. Stating this, I have to also sleep by 1 AM at latest in order to fulfill this early awakening. I’ve been able to make myself go to sleep by 12:30 AM all but one time and that one time was a tad bit late and I did pay for it… the next day, I was tired by 11 PM. In any case, it looks like my schedule will permit me to stay up until 12:30 and then it’s bed time for me… until I get used to the time and able to sleep in shorter hours.

Work’s been great and I continue to enjoy my job there. There are times when it’s challenging and there are times when it’s relaxing. I think it’s the same with most places. I’ll be getting my first pay this Friday. Hooray for working for money!

Chelsea came down to Tampa this week and it was a great weekend. Yup, I enjoyed it very much and she did too. Saw The Proposal on Saturday and Transformers on Sunday. Both are good movies and I recommend them. I would even recommend The Proposal over Year One and I personally find The Proposal having more comedy moments than Year One… and Year One is suppose to be a comedy show O_o Unacceptable. I can’t say I’m all pleased with Transformers, but I would say I definitely enjoyed it a little more than the first one (which I bought just to watch).

All in all, two weeks of fun and next week, I’ll be in Tampa and Chelsea will be visiting some family in Kentucky. Too bad I can’t go >_< Well, next week would more than likely be another cleaning weekend. Until then, I’m going to relax. Spider-Man: Web of Shadows died on me while saving and froze my PS3. Time to try it again.

Pizza Party and the Last Day

Today (Wednesday), my we had a pizza party as a going away. Tomorrow is my last day of work. I wonder how I will work. Will I work hard and do as much as I can, will I slack-off, or will I have a difficult time working because I won’t be in that room with the same people around me ever again?

I sure will miss those guys, especially some of those that I’ve grown to work well with and have a great working relationship with.

I hope I have made some kind of impact for the Techrangers and for my co-workers.

UP

Today I saw UP. It was good. I enjoyed it and it was cute. I will definitely recommend it ^_^ Could have so twittered this.

Had a dinner party with my sister. Saw my ex. She’s doing pretty good and she’s happy with the guy she’s with, I’m happy for her. I’m also happy because I’m very happy with the girl I’m with. My ex and I don’t talk much anymore, but she’s my sister’s friend, that’s why I saw her at my sister’s dinner party. We both went our separate ways and we’re both happy. My sister is happy too, very happy… well, maybe not today >_< lol. It was pretty funny though.

Well, 2 weeks until a new employer. I’m happy and sad. Very excited about it too. Well, UP is a good movie and you should go and see it.