Heck to Today, but BAM in My Face O_O

Titles and headers are great things. They pretty much summarize the story as a whole, but to know the whole story, you still have to read.

Today = SUPPLIES (shout it really loud and you’ll get it… or say it loud with a fake Chinese accent) day for me. Why? I don’t know. I can’t say why really, but it is. I don’t know why it has to happen today, because I can guarantee it wasn’t like that anytime since 2 months ago.

This morning while getting ready for work, I decided to try a new approach to my day. I was going to say, “Heck to what other people think. Why should I care if others care about themselves more? I’m going to have the day for me and I’m going to plan it all out during lunch, and I’m going to just have a me day. I’ll work for work, but other things… for me.” Yea, don’t do that, especially if you’re me.

The day started well. Had a team meeting, all was smooth and normal. Started working… and then lunch plan was cancelled. Decided to go to lunch with co-workers because we have to get something done for work.

There goes my plan to plan out my day O_O (First BAM! in the gut. Not too bad, still can go on.)

I get a call and I was told that there might be a position opening that I might be interested or able to do it. WHAT?!?! I have a job. But it’s still a good opportunity. Yea, I know. First, was told the person working there up and left without reason all of a sudden. Then they’re desperate to look for someone? (Desperate, really? Will you pay me $100,000 to work for you? I don’t think they’re THAT desperate). In any case, that brings about thoughts into my head. How can I leave my work place that I just started 2 months ago? If the job is a good job and I do want to go, I personally cannot bring myself to leave a company like that.

What about only for me day? Yea yea, that was thought of too and I can’t say that I was able to do that at all…. BAM! Second one was to my face.

God has a sense of humor, he would constantly remind me that there are people around me and I’m always thinking of others. I can’t have a day thinking about myself and all for me. I have to say though, my sister said it best today… um, I don’t remember what she said. I know I was going to quote her, but dam you my memory. Stop forgetting things. I was also going to quote Chelsea, but I forgot. Dam you memory again.

Well, there wasn’t a third BAM!! I calmed down, settled with the obvious choice… just send in my resume and see what happens. If it’s meant to be, why not? If it’s not, then why bother? I’m happy either way.

*Secretly rubbing hands together evilly and whisper o-so-softly* “Come on $100,000.”

Oh, speaking of money, the Florida powerball lottery sure is a lot of money. What is it? 186 Million dollars? I wonder if I should try my hand in it? I probably won’t, unless I hear the numbers very clearly in my head. Good luck to those who are trying and remember, wisdom will take you a long way. If I won that money, 1/2 of it is going to churches and missionaries. The others, well, they’re probably going to get taxed, heheheh. Whatever’s left would go to bills and debts and the rest is for me to live a relaxed life. If I don’t win it, I’ll still have money going to church and missionaries, going to tax, bills, and debts. The rest of my money I’m earning, they’re still going into my life. So, it really is no difference, only a larger sum.

I can guarantee something I would think of doing and BAM! I get punched in my face (not literally just so everyone is clear).

I love my life. It’s surrounded by great families, friends, and most of all… air. Yes, air. I can breathe and live with it ^_^

Everyday Life Christian… or so I Thought

I started jogging. To be honest, I wished I could start running, but it’s been a while. I would say a little less than a year of not exercising. This is very much like a walk with Christ. We want to start running, but not everyone has that type of stamina. I know I sure don’t physically, that’s why I started jogging. For me, it’s the same with my walk with Christ. I have to constantly do it, otherwise I won’t be able to run anymore and when I look up and want to start running like when I used to, I stumble and fall and start to huff-and-puff. I know that I can jog and have positive results, both physically and spiritually. When it’s time to run, I will run, and I will take that time, but here’s one thing I learned from not exercising for a long time: don’t stop.

Once I stopped exercising, I gave myself countless change to become physically tired. I am not  strong, lack stamina in doing heavy work and worst of all, not living to my utmost potential in a healthy and happy life. In most people’s view, I’m definitely healthy and happy, but I can’t say that I’m the healthiest I could be and in that sense, I’m not at the best I could be. That’s the way how Christians should walk the faith. I for one is not excluded, but a mere 10% of our time is worth a lot more to God than we could imagine. We cannot do our yo-yo dieting with our physical body, it’s dangerous and bad for us, and in the same sense, it’s not good for our spiritual self.

So, do it a little at a time daily is better than trying to do them all cramped up in one or two days. If it isn’t the best for you physically, it isn’t best for you spiritually. Take that to heart and hopefully you walk in your Faith full-hearted the best that you can ^_^

The Career World

I’ve always heard the career world is scary and now that I’m almost there, it actually is pretty scary. I’m at a crossroad where I have to make decisions that has an affect on my life. Existential choices. What job am I going to make, how long do I have to save money before able to spend it on a little nicer things. Many scary questions when thinking about it.

I am worried, but at the same time, I know my God has a plan for me. A plan to prosper me, and give me hope and a future ^_^

Why Do Bad Things Happen to Good People?

Everyone who thinks they’ve lived a good live asks this question. It’s the question of “Why do bad things happen to me?” It’s the fact of life that good people should not receive any punishments, that they’re always good. Well, I believe I’m a good person, I also believe others that know me would say so too… but bad things have happened in my life even before I became a teenager, and it didn’t stop there, it continued one into my adulthood. So, why do bad things happen to good people?

I believe God is real, and I believe God is good. I also believe that He provides for all my needs and He’s there when I need Him. I know that my life on earth is not an accident and I know that God has something wonderful for me to experience in my life. I also know that I am here to worship Him. A lot of people ask, if God is good, why does He allow bad things to happen? Why is it that we as His children are suffering and he doesn’t help?

There is no easy answer. I believe that sin has been bore into the world and that we were born sinners. No matter what, our lives in this world is a sin, because of what Adam and Eve did. Sure, we can blame them all we want, but I believe that anyone in their position would have been the same. There is no “I know better” at that point, because they did not have history like us to learn from. Look at us with all the history we need so we won’t repeat what has happened… I think our minds are just weak and there is nothing we can do about it.

So, why do bad things happen to us? Next time when you’re about to ask that question, think back at a time when you did wrong. Think back of the time when you were spare from punishment because you said sorry. You might have meant it, but did you repeat that mistake? No one in this world in perfect, therefore there is no “good” people. We only see “good” in our perspective, to us, we are good. To God, we are only good in his Son’s blood. That is my faith, that is why I believe all that I do and that is why I am who I am. That is why I can continue to live even when hope is lost, anger is found, anguish is born, and death is in front of me. I continue to live because I know that my God is good, and He has a plan for me, whether it is for a day, a week, a month, a year, a decade, or a century.

Bad things happen to be for a reason, bad things happen to me not because I’m bad, because experience some times is the wisdom I need. Bad things happen to me not because I do not have faith, it’s because God wills it. Bad things just happens… what are you going to do about it?

Forget the Old, Walk Forward

No can do mister (or miss). Walking forward while forgetting the past means repeating history over again. History claims that it’s there to help history from happening again (mainly the bad parts of it), but I’ve heard enough times that we should just forget the past and move to the future. This is very contradicting and someone should come up with a better saying for this.

Flutter in your dreams my friends,
flutter like the butterfly with such short lifespan.

What is your dream? Right now, what is the one goal you want to achieve and reach?

For me, it’s simple. To never regret this season of my life in college. Many times have I look back at my high school years and thought to myself, “Man, I wish I could go back to high school and do this and that and so many things that I’ve never taken a chance to do.” Regret is a bucket filled with hurt wrapped in meat and have been pound into dust (no idea if that even made any sense).

Sing a song of yesterday
for the hurt that comes tomorrow
in the depth of a lonely hole
there comes a light that’ll wipe your sorrow