My Life of Roses and Thorns

I was always told I was the happy kid. I love smiling and laughing. I enjoy making people laugh. I love the random things that I do and people giving me a quizzical look. I even enjoy a quiet time of laziness where I just lay on my bed and look up on the ceiling as my fan goes round and round.

I’ve always had an outward of positive. That is until the negative starts to overwhelm me. This blog is more than just an everything blog, it’s an outlet for me. It is a way for me to put down my thoughts using the time I have. Using words to describe my thoughts (this doesn’t say much, since when I use my words in person, they tend to come out in a way that people take them the wrong way). I don’t know how some people do it, but they’ve managed. For me, I’m starting. This responsible life that I call adulthood… this road that will lead me through this season of my life filled with roses and thorns.

I believe that a solid foundation is a good start. I was always striving for a good foundation. I also believe in helping people out. There is no such a thing as too generous. What happens when generosity and foundation clash and having one breaks another? That is when life becomes difficult for the one who chooses to do both. Thus, the story of me.

This is going to be a little personal, but hey, I’m the one who chose to share right. I’m sure most have been in a difficult financial situation. I think I’m at that point where I’m not yet there, but it’s creeping up on me and I see it approaching. For this month, and next, I have vowed against buying any games. No computer or video games. I usually get 1 or 2 each month.

Here’s me. Here’s the world. Now, “me” is now put into “the world” without any coaching besides the idea of “foundation.”

That’s my situation. I was always the housemate who just paid the rent and bill money to the other housemate who did the real rent payment. Not too difficult to figure out how to do that really, but the discipline of sitting down and sorting these out was never instilled in me. Then, I’m all of a sudden paying bills for a house too big for 2 people to live in. Again, not too difficult to do, but the responsibility is way too big for someone who just came out of college and just got an entrance job. Now, I’m saving up money for my wedding that is more than a year away. Again, not a difficult thing to do… if I had all the money I’ve saved up that was spent on things that are other people’s responsibility.

This is where patience for anyone could come thin and perhaps explode. For me, It’s already passed the exploding point. My fuse has lit pass it’s exploding point and continues to lit inside of the explosive (if that is even possible). My mom had a time-share. We both co-owned it. My mom passed away. I continue to pay (since I was in the middle of college). Found out there was insurance on it and insurance will (or should) pay for it all when my mom passed away and reimburse me with the money I’ve paid for. Gave the insurance all the information they needed… over and over again for 6 months. Heard nothing from them. I’ve now been paying time-share for more than 2 years. That money was my savings for a brand new car since I was in college… and changed to my wedding since I got engaged.

Why shouldn’t I stop? Because the guardian who brought my family here to US has said he’s working on it and has a lawyer working to get this settle. The thing is, I deserve to get back the money I’ve spend all these years, and if I cancel the time-share, then I won’t get a fraction of it at all… to my knowledge. How long should one person be patient for in this situation? 1 year? 2 years? 3 years? 7 years?

My mom brought me up with a little pride about money. Never ask for money, never tell people our financial difficulties. I am a firm believer of generosity, but only outwardly. I would think that with all that I have done right, something like this would never happen to me. Being left aside by an insurance company who cares not about their own promises to insure those who justly deserve it. But with all that I have done right, I have also done wrong… and rightly so, an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth.

In conclusion… the what-if of my life.

The money I should have would pay for my wedding, the money I could have saved up would get me a new car, and the money I could be saving would get me into a nice 2-bedroom apartment.

All I Want for Christmas is…

… my two front teeth.

Originally, I had only one item on my Christmas list. To be honest, it actually is only still one item, but two others have crawled their way onto the list. They’re not things that I really need, but rather things that would be nice to have.

1. Electric shaver
2. HD TV
3. Money

I think anyone could use money, so that alone is not really an item. HD TV, well, who wouldn’t want one? Especially if one owns a 360 and PS3. However, I heard the 360 isn’t true HD. When it’s put into a larger than 42″ HD, you can see the difference. I don’t know how true it is with the newer systems, but if it’s a port for HD and only going up to 1080i instead of 1080p, then the difference definitely is noticeable on a larger TV screen.

My first item on the list and the only thing I expect to get, an electric shaver. To be completely honest, I’m actually more excited to get that than a HD TV. It is because my very first electric shaver that I’ve had for almost 9 years is in it’s final stage and I will actually get a new one. Then I started wondering how many people out there have own an electric shaver for almost 9 years.

Thought I’d share my list, what’s your list for this Christmas? Care to share?

Life is Good

Life is good.

Nothing to really complain about. My financial is not in the red, even though it’s close to it.

Been playing a lot of games lately and being behind in writing entries for my blog. Oh well, life is still good.

Games been playing: Aion, LoL, Borderland, Demon’s Souls

Weekends are my relaxing days.

Yup, that is all I have to update now >_<

I am No More Eligible

That’s right, I’m off the market. As of September 19th, 2009, I am engaged to the lovely Miss Chelsea. No juicy details, sorry. I think down the road, we’ll do a couple’s blog, how we get to each others’ throat and annoy each other, but until then, probably nothing much to say. I’ll say this though, I asked the question at the spot we first kissed. Yea, I’m a romantic sap and I remember some of these things. Enough to get me by probably. As much as I forget, the important ones to remember are probably first date, first kiss, date of when I ask her to start going out with me, probably our engagement date, and our wedding date. Oh yea, and her birthday. I can’t foresee anything else being super duper important to remember >_< I’m not trying to say I don’t try, but I tend to forget things very very easily. I think she knows that’s how I am.

My whole ordeal with not being online just stems from not wanting to spoil the surprise. I don’t know if you’ve realized it or not, but I tend to blab on about certain things that I should not have prior to a certain time and etc.

We have not set a date and I will not write too much about any of those mushy gushy stuff here. This is almost like a public journal for all to read, but it’s most definitely about me personally and my thoughts about life and the world. So, I’ll leave it at that and there will be other blogs to read for their own purpose.

Now, back to working hard, earning money, and saving them up for the big banquet. I wonder how many people out of the invitees will show up… *starts pondering*…

League of Legends – The Beta Test

If you’ve been following me from a long time ago, you know I wrote a little about League of Legends (LoL). If you haven’t, here’s the link to it, and it’s a very short post.

Thursday night, I was happy to say I got my desktop running and installed LoL on it. It was just the beta, but I pre-ordered the game already. It definitely has the feel of Defense of the Ancient (DotA) map in WarCraft 3. LoL is its own game and I am very glad they did it. It should have its own title. Not only is it competitive, but also fun. It definitely brings a whole level of teamwork. I do wish that it would play on a Mac though, cause I have my laptop everywhere I go and there are times I crave that game… already.

I only played it once, so don’t take my word for it, but I was convinced that I would enjoy the game and pre-ordered the game. That was how I was able to play beta, I wasn’t really invited into it, though it would be nice (my cousin did though). Nevertheless, my first play in a test server game was nothing more than an enjoyable one. It was even better after my team won ^_^ I played Ashe, a ranger. She reminded me of Drow Ranger in DotA.

Into a short analysis of the game. The first thing that caught me was that it’s beautiful. The color and the look was just stunning and gave a new feel for such a game (that I don’t think was ever created before). I couldn’t be more please with the gameplay. It took a little to get used to the keyboard shortcuts, but after a while, it was really easy. I never needed to move my hand (left hand) on the keyboard away from the home row. It also took me a little while to get used to the fact that my hero was always selected. For strategy games, it is very normal to be able to deselect, only because you usually control more than one hero. In this sense, it’s almost like an MMO, action, or an adventure game where you’re only controlling one person. I am unsure about the tree stats and certain extra things added for heroes when your sorcerer levels up, but things like that brings longevity to a game that just sits there. In this sense, it makes each hero different. I could have the same items and same hero as another person on the team, but because of the different runes we use, our hero will end up with different results and different stats. I could have runes that only up my hp and mana and their regen while the other player could use runes that brings up their damage and attack speed and defense. This definitely brings about the competitiveness of the game and also the different outcome of a game that could happen.

The battle was only 20 minutes. Which was a good time frame. After reading the forums a little, it looked like the time frame could go up as long as an hour, depending on how well each team plays of course. Seeing this, I would recommend people trying out the beta first before purchasing the game. If you’re already into DotA and wish for a new look and feel and play, I say get this game and play both. I stopped playing DotA because the fact that people quitting the game (regardless of being banned or not) just keeps happening and it got very tired.

Regardless, if you are interested in the beta, I do have one available beta request left. If you are interested (after checking out their site) and would like to try it or get an invitation, you are welcome to leave your e-mail address in a comment to this post. Just for a heads up, your e-mail will be publicly known and that is at your own risk. I will also need you to write why you want an invite and who would be your first hero of choice. This is so I won’t be giving invite to some random anonymous person who doesn’t know anything about the game at all. At least I would know why you want it and who you would play. First come first serve, that’s it. Sorry I only have one. I had 2, but the second one was already given out and I only had 3. First one was already given out to a friend.

Once again, check out League of Legends website, created by Riot Games.